Thirty Two Reasons

The big three two.

It’s really not one of those big ones, but to me it’s a different one. Thanks to the quarantine, I have had a lot more time to think of things I might’ve taken for granted, or been too busy to appreciate. Like I said in my last post, it is so easy to get carried away in the everyday business and get lost in the chaos. 

In honor of my birthday, I thought it would be fun to write about 32 things that I am grateful for. 

So here we go:

God’s Grace, Love, Mercy and Forgiveness

A Life Without Jesus

My Trials and Tribulations

My Strength

Ability To See The Good Even in the Bad

*sigh* What would I do without Him? Remembering my “BC” (before Christ) life, sometimes brings me to tears. Sometimes happy tears and sometimes some very sad ones. Oftentimes, I think back and think “wow I survived” or “I did that”. I even have those breathtaking moments that I feel deep in my chest and think to myself “I can’t believe I went through that”. But it’s those very moments that just remind me how beautiful God’s grace, mercy and forgiveness is. That even when I felt I did not deserve it, he still showed up for me. He gave me the ability to see the good in every circumstance, even the heart breaking ones. And the strength to push through even when I didn’t think I have it in me. These are the reasons why I learned that life without Jesus is no life at all and for that I am eternally grateful.

My Dad and his health.

The past year and a half has not been the easiest for my family, as my dad’s health took a turn for the worst. Lots of sleepless nights filled with tears and worry. Today I am truly grateful that I was able to see him for at least 30 minutes and got to hug him and appreciate that he is still here with me to share another birthday. 

Family and Friends.

Because without them, who are we anyways?

My Safeguards

My support system, my back bone. There’s not much more I can say but I’d be here all day. Just know that I can’t do life without them.

My Beliefs

Knowing that God’s got me no matter what. And knowing that the positivity I put out in this universe will come back to me. 

My Job and My Boss

I know during these times, many are left without work. Even though I go into work everyday with fear because of this virus, I am so overly thankful that I can still go in. And to my boss, who is more than just that; oh what a beautiful soul. 

My Sense of Humor

Because I find everything funny… literally!

Pizza 

Because Pizza is life, duh! 

My Therapist

Honestly, I think everyone should have a therapist, it’s just good for the soul.

My Health. My Education. Gym. 

Makeup. Technology. 

Nature. Traveling. Music.

Memories. Sleep. 

Love. My Happiness. 

and Platform to Inspire Others!

There are so much more I am grateful for, I literally can go on and on.

 

So today I ask you: What are some things that you are grateful for and why? 

Sincerely,

Mila ♥♥

A Quarantined Birthday

Hi my friends! (writing that made me think of Carole Baskin – and if you don’t know the reference please go watch Tiger King on Netflix when you’re done reading lol) 

Anyways….. I AM BACK!!!! And it’s MY BIRTHDAY, I couldn’t think of a better day to come back to blogging then today! This birthday is a different one….. QUARANTINED? Never in my 32 years (yes I said 32! Still can’t believe I’m this old) did I imagine something like this. Where our new normals consist of wearing masks anywhere but our homes, not being able to see our friends and loved ones as we would like and living in fear. Although these times are so uncertain and devastating we have to make the best out of it. 

I am not going to lie, I fell into the “quarantine 15“. The beginning days were more of “buy and eat everything you see” and let me tell you, it’s not looking good for me lol. I think after today, I’m going to get back on my keto journey and try to not cave into the quarantine goodies, who’s with me? 

If I had it my way, I’d be on a beautiful international beach with 6 pack abs, a nice beverage and accompanied with close friends. But God had other plans and I am home relaxed on my recliner, watching my gate swing open and close as the wind blows by with no sunlight in sight; completely opposite of what I had envisioned today to be. 

To be honest, this is probably what I needed, sit and be present, and I think many of us needed this too. It is so important to be able to be present in the now. Life gets so busy that it is easy to get lost in the chaos. This is the time to call those old friends and catch up, declutter your closet and read those books that have been collecting dust on the bookshelf. Or pick up new hobbies like meditating, at home yoga or cooking. This is the “me time” that I always encourage my friends to give to themselves, because honestly we deserve it. Granted, this “me time” seems somewhat never ending, but there is good in everything, we just need to find it. Don’t marinate in the worry or the stress of this pandemic, but enjoy the time we get to spend home relaxing and working on ourselves. 

As for me and my birthday, this will definitely be one to remember. Not only because it is a quarantined birthday, but because I was reminded of the amazing people I call friends, who have been so creative in making me feel special on this day since celebrating in person is not an option. 

So today I ask you: Stay safe, stay positive and stay home!

Sincerely,

Mila ♥♥

 

A Minute

Hello.

So it’s been almost 3 months. I’m sorry.

I let my circumstances get the best of me. And as I tried to control them, in the end, it controlled me.

My plate was full, and I felt like I just couldn’t breathe. Literally. (thank you anxiety)

If you follow me on Instagram, then you know my last post was reminding everyone to breathe. No matter the circumstances, just breathe. At that point anxiety not only got the best of me mentally but physically too. 

And then… I just shut down.

A part of me feels like I failed some of you.
I get so many messages of how motivating my posts are, how my love for God is so motivating, how my positiveness brings light in to their darkness.

But I just needed a minute.

A minute to breathe. A minute to understand. A minute to pick up the pieces.

Tonight as I prayed. I just kept asking, “why did l let it beat me?”.

I knew that there was a God bigger than my fears, bigger than my circumstances. Deep down, I knew that everything would be okay. But yet, I still let my anxiety win. I still allowed myself to feel defeated knowing God’s truth.

And although I don’t have the answer as to why and how did I allow myself to get so lost in the defeat. I can tell you that He will find you just where you are, even when you yourself don’t even know where you lost yourself. And He will pick up every single shattered piece and put you back together.

See there is no perfect walk with God. Sometimes we just lose ourselves. Sometimes we feel discouraged. Sometimes we let life’s circumstance take our breath away. But the best part of having Him as the center of our world, is that in midst of the battle we remember His promises and hold tight to that.

So today I ask you: to just take a minute to BREATHE and PRAY. Hold tight to the fact that GOD’S GOT YOU no matter the circumstance!

Sincerely,

Mila ♥♥

Defender – Steffany Gretzinger | Bethel Music Worship

Distracted

It’s been a minute, I know. Strangely enough I’ve semi written three different post(s), but never finished them. By the end of this post, you may understand why.

About two weeks ago, I was feeling so uneasy. Something wasn’t right. I got up, put on some worship music and had a serious talk with God. In the midst of my tears I heard him tell me:

“YOU’RE DISTRACTED”

I can’t even begin to explain the guilt, the sadness, the shame this brought me. Because it’s TRUE! I’ve been on this race track, with different types of pit stops. For the moment, it all felt fun. I felt alive, adventurous, motivated. But the truth is, I kept making the wrong pit stops or at least they feel like the wrong pit stops. Because aren’t pit stops created to fix the issue in order to continue the race? So why didn’t I feel good enough to finish the race?

Here’s why. Those fixes were temporary fixes and not surrounded on God and His word. None of those pit stops were to check in with Him. And that’s where I went wrong.

I forgot to check in with the One in control of the race.

It’s so easy to get caught up in the high of the race that we forget. We lose sight. We become DISTRACTED! For me, checking in with God keeps me grounded, keeps me true to who I am. Without God at my center, I somehow feel like I lose control. I lose who I am.

But we serve such a forgiving and understanding God. That is the beauty of His grace. That somehow someway, in the midst of the race he flags us down. We don’t need to start the race over, but just allow him to coach us through. That is where you’ll see victory!

So today I ask you: What is distracting you from checking in with God?

Sincerely,

Mila ♥♥

song that I’m loving during this race:

Hillsong – As You Find Me