A Quarantined Birthday

Hi my friends! (writing that made me think of Carole Baskin – and if you don’t know the reference please go watch Tiger King on Netflix when you’re done reading lol) 

Anyways….. I AM BACK!!!! And it’s MY BIRTHDAY, I couldn’t think of a better day to come back to blogging then today! This birthday is a different one….. QUARANTINED? Never in my 32 years (yes I said 32! Still can’t believe I’m this old) did I imagine something like this. Where our new normals consist of wearing masks anywhere but our homes, not being able to see our friends and loved ones as we would like and living in fear. Although these times are so uncertain and devastating we have to make the best out of it. 

I am not going to lie, I fell into the “quarantine 15“. The beginning days were more of “buy and eat everything you see” and let me tell you, it’s not looking good for me lol. I think after today, I’m going to get back on my keto journey and try to not cave into the quarantine goodies, who’s with me? 

If I had it my way, I’d be on a beautiful international beach with 6 pack abs, a nice beverage and accompanied with close friends. But God had other plans and I am home relaxed on my recliner, watching my gate swing open and close as the wind blows by with no sunlight in sight; completely opposite of what I had envisioned today to be. 

To be honest, this is probably what I needed, sit and be present, and I think many of us needed this too. It is so important to be able to be present in the now. Life gets so busy that it is easy to get lost in the chaos. This is the time to call those old friends and catch up, declutter your closet and read those books that have been collecting dust on the bookshelf. Or pick up new hobbies like meditating, at home yoga or cooking. This is the “me time” that I always encourage my friends to give to themselves, because honestly we deserve it. Granted, this “me time” seems somewhat never ending, but there is good in everything, we just need to find it. Don’t marinate in the worry or the stress of this pandemic, but enjoy the time we get to spend home relaxing and working on ourselves. 

As for me and my birthday, this will definitely be one to remember. Not only because it is a quarantined birthday, but because I was reminded of the amazing people I call friends, who have been so creative in making me feel special on this day since celebrating in person is not an option. 

So today I ask you: Stay safe, stay positive and stay home!

Sincerely,

Mila ♥♥

 

A Minute

Hello.

So it’s been almost 3 months. I’m sorry.

I let my circumstances get the best of me. And as I tried to control them, in the end, it controlled me.

My plate was full, and I felt like I just couldn’t breathe. Literally. (thank you anxiety)

If you follow me on Instagram, then you know my last post was reminding everyone to breathe. No matter the circumstances, just breathe. At that point anxiety not only got the best of me mentally but physically too. 

And then… I just shut down.

A part of me feels like I failed some of you.
I get so many messages of how motivating my posts are, how my love for God is so motivating, how my positiveness brings light in to their darkness.

But I just needed a minute.

A minute to breathe. A minute to understand. A minute to pick up the pieces.

Tonight as I prayed. I just kept asking, “why did l let it beat me?”.

I knew that there was a God bigger than my fears, bigger than my circumstances. Deep down, I knew that everything would be okay. But yet, I still let my anxiety win. I still allowed myself to feel defeated knowing God’s truth.

And although I don’t have the answer as to why and how did I allow myself to get so lost in the defeat. I can tell you that He will find you just where you are, even when you yourself don’t even know where you lost yourself. And He will pick up every single shattered piece and put you back together.

See there is no perfect walk with God. Sometimes we just lose ourselves. Sometimes we feel discouraged. Sometimes we let life’s circumstance take our breath away. But the best part of having Him as the center of our world, is that in midst of the battle we remember His promises and hold tight to that.

So today I ask you: to just take a minute to BREATHE and PRAY. Hold tight to the fact that GOD’S GOT YOU no matter the circumstance!

Sincerely,

Mila ♥♥

Defender – Steffany Gretzinger | Bethel Music Worship